Ever feel alone, but not in a social way? Of course there are always those certain calls from family members, texts from friends, and junk mail from window cleaning companies that bombard us with messages of different importance like clockwork, but I’m speaking of a different kind of loneliness. A disconnect.
Raised a nerd, I remember logging on for the first time around age 9 at school. Mostly it was to use important educational tools like Ask Jeeves and simple online versions of encyclopedias, but us kids quickly discovered this little gem. The internet was exciting. MSN Messenger and chat rooms soon followed, and I got my own computer, a hand-me-down from my aunt at age 11. Soon I discovered message boards, IRC communities, and how to make my first blog. My love for the internet was full steam.
I think it sort of directed me towards my love of communication, and soon, journalism. The only other example I can think of is the music, skateboarding, and videogame magazines I subscribed to at early ages, but even then the idea of writing for a living never clicked to me. It only was until I forced friends to read hilariously personal narrative entries in Livejournal and blogs that I really, truly enjoyed to have something that represented a voice beyond speaking to just one person at a time.
So you can expect my frustration when it’s nearly one full month into a new home, but same city when we still don’t have internet yet still (Still!).
It’s a simple matter of getting a Trained Expert of Wiring over here to flip the switch. We could easily hail a Rogers van, waving a six-pack and yelling “come fix our internet, guy!” But no, we must faithfully wait for the Rogers van to, at the instruction of our latest ISP choice, Distributel. Hopefully they are less of a nightmare than Teksavvy was, but that’s all beside the point.
I get Twitter through my cell phone, and check it regularly. I feel like it’s my lifeline to my once flourishing online world. I update this blog at school and cafes mostly these days, and I scrape what little information I can out of the internet before I have to head to class, or an assignment.
It all happened so quickly, too. We are so connected at all times these days, that you really don’t notice the grip it has until it suddenly vanishes. No more new music (a big one), new blog posts, or the constantly morphing and changing framework of my world, as dictated by my bookmarked blogs, news sites, web 2.0 fun ventures, and of course, Facebook.
A lesson in patience and self-reliance, true, and it has developed into the pursuit of a few more hobbies and interests, some of which you’ll no doubt be seeing in the future, but still, I can’t help but wonder just how I’m going to distract myself tonight. Maybe I’ll read a book. Remember books?